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Hollow - Jade
PG - implied m/m slash, angst
Characters: Kevin Nash/Scott Hall
Summary: Songfic based on James Blunt's "Goodbye My Lover." Sometimes life catches you off-guard. Disclaimer: We own neither the characters nor the individuals who portray them. Written soley for our own enjoyment.


So, it's come to this.

Did I disappoint you or let you down
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown

Alot of people, at this moment, after watching what they hold dearest walk away, would say that somewhere deep down in the dark corner of their soul, they knew. They knew the moment would come eventually.

Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
Yes, I saw you were blind and I knew I had won

But, not him. In his wildest dreams, he never imagines this could happen. Even in the darkest of the night when the darkest dreams come to call, this was never feared.

So I took what's mine by eternal right
Took your soul out into the night

What went wrong? How did it all go so wrong? When Scott had sat him down with a 'Can I talk to you, Kev?', he hadn't anticipated the words that flowed from that beloved mouth. As each word escaped to pierce the happy bubble around him, Kevin could almost imagine the sharp points gleefully careening through the air straight towards his heart.

It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you if you'd only care

After a long, silent pause in which Kevin stared blankly into Scott, Scott asked 'You can't be too shocked?'

You toucked my heart,
You touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals

But, he was. This was the man he'd planned his life around, the man he'd planned his life with. He just couldn't function without Scott.

Love is blind, that I knew
And my heart was blinded by you

With that thought bouncing in his head, Kevin was able to mutter a quiet 'Are you sure?' Hearing Scott answer, "Yes. I'm just not happy here anymore," took any air Kevin may have found to fill his sails away.

I kissed your lips and held your head
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well, I know your smell
I've been addicted to you

Above all else, including his own happiness, Kevin wanted Scott to be happy. Kevin found he couldn't deny Scott his chance. It would kill him. So, with a shaky hand covering his face, Kevin nodded, "Ok, if it's what you want...ok." He couldn't quite keep his voice from breaking on that very last word.

Goodbye, my lover
Goodbye, my friend
You have been the one, you have been the one for me
Goodbye, my lover
Goodbye, my friend
You have been the one, you have been the one for me

Some may have seen this as giving up. Some may have decided Kevin wanted it over just as much as Scott. They would be wrong.

I am a dreamer and when I wake
You can't break my spirit,
It's my dreams you take

It was the bravest thing Kevin had ever done. It was the bravest thing anyone could ever do when faced with the situation.

And as you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be

To give up everything you hold dear, to sacrifice your own happiness and contentment for that of someone else and just let them go.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile
I've watched you sleeping for a while
I'd be the father of your child
I'd spend a lifetime with you

Now, hours later, after watching Scott walk out leaving with a soft kiss and a "I'll see ya, Big Guy" behind him, Kevin sat by the back window of their home staring out into the darkness. What now?

I know your fears,
You know mine
We've had our doubts but now we're fine
And I love you,
I swear that's true
I cannot live without you

Memories of their time together flickered through his mind like a movie. All of the good times and the bad. The times together and apart. Times as friends and lovers. All over now.

Goodbye, my lover
Goodbye, my friend
You have been the one, you have been the one for me
Goodbye, my lover
Goodbye, my friend
You have been the one, you have been the one for me

He heard the door open and for just a second, his heart jumped with the hope Scott had come back. But, when he turned, it wasn't Scott he found. With a small sigh and a sinking heart, he turned back to gaze out the window.

And I still hold your hand in mine
In mine when I'm asleep
And I will bare my soul in time
When I'm kneeling at your feet

Kevin felt familiar arms encircle his neck from behind and a husky voice in his ear. "How you feeling?" With a deep breath, Kevin leaned his head against Shawn's chest.

Goodbye, my lover
Goodbye, my friend
You have been the one, you have been the one for me
Goodbye, my lover
Goodbye, my friend
You have been the one, you have been the one for me

"I feel...hollow."

I'm so hollow, baby I'm so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow
I'm so hollow, baby I'm so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

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